Do you want me to be completely honest?
I have always been terrified of love.
Any kind of love.
With the chances of being blissful or miserable,
To wonder if I fly or if I fall.
God because,
It’s so beautiful and so chaotic
The idea that it could save me or kill me
The idea that those I love
Could make me melt into their palms
And of how for them I would turn to stone
And the idea that all this could vanish
In mere seconds
You see,
I am like a machine
Error printed across its screen
Programmed to feel a certain way
To feel the bare minimum
No matter how much love you may show me
There will always be a part that thinks you don’t
The writer is a 17 year old with a penchant for writing, art, music and technology. She is the proud author of her first book ‘Chaotic Kindness’, which is hopefully the first in the line of many.
Published in Daily Times, December 3rd 2017.