American singer Carrie Underwood said that parenthood was not without its heartbreak, as she revealed she suffered three miscarriages in the last three years, an international publication reports. The 35-year-old country music star told CBS news on Sunday that she broke down in tears when she suspected she was suffering a fourth. The former American Idol winner explained: “I’d kind of planned that 2017 was, you know, going to be the year that I work on new music, and I have a baby. We got pregnant early 2017, and didn’t work out.” She continued: “It happens. And that was the thing, in the beginning it was like, “Okay, God, we know this is, just wasn’t Your timing. And that is all right. We will bounce back and figure our way through it.” And got pregnant again in the spring, and it didn’t work out.” The ‘Cry Pretty ‘ singer revealed that a third lost pregnancy had her asking questions: “Got pregnant again, early 2018. Didn’t work out. So, at that point, it was just kind of like, Okay, like, what’s the deal? What is all of this?” “I had always been afraid to be angry. Because we are so blessed. And my son, Isaiah, is the sweetest thing. And he’s the best thing in the world. And I’m like, “If we can never have any other kids, that’s okay, because he’s amazing.” And I have this amazing life. Like, really, what can I complain about? I can’t. I have an incredible husband, incredible friends, an incredible job, an incredible kid. Can I be mad? No.” She explained that when she then thought she was suffering a fourth miscarriage, she cried before turning to God. “Mike was away just for the evening, and I texted him, and I was like, I don’t really want to be alone, so I’m just gonna go snuggle with Isaiah. And I don’t know how I didn’t wake him up, but I was just sobbing. And I was like, Why on Earth do I keep getting pregnant if I can’t have a kid? Like, what is this? Shut the door. Like, do something. Either shut the door or let me have a kid,” she told the network. “For the first time, I feel like I actually I told God how I felt. And I feel, like, we’re supposed to do that. That was like a Saturday – and the Monday I went to the doctor to, like, confirm, another miscarriage. And they told me everything was great!” She’s now expecting their second child with her NHL hockey star husband, which she announced in August. Published in Daily Times, September 18th 2018.